Short feelings in my drawings

I have infection and every day I feeling pain in my body, every day fighting to live and go on getting some crappy jobs to have money for food, parents make my life every day more nightmare… I really don’t know how long I will stay that without any sign for good future. My skills are nothing in my country and everyone around me have depression, because of the same fear and loneliness. I’m not able to help myself, so how I can help somebody else…
I’m still HCLF vegan, I got again mini-stroke attack after my last try when ppl around me forsed me to eat meat, next day my mom brought me an article from some site to prove that I’m anorexic when I do not know how much I weigh, because I do not care. I’m slim, not skinny, I do sports too, so I’m not fall from lack of power, hair and nails grow me how stupid…. but not for that I change my lifestyle. I want be healthy and don’t feel any hurt, only that infection, because I was forsed to eat meat by people who don’t care about me. I’m stupid I blown off the road by people who do not care about what I say. It distress me that my life is range of failures.
I feel sorry that my journal is again about sad truth about my life,
but I want you to have combined it with my art.

I would like someday to describe that I have a great job, and everything is well, but I don’t see it actually.


Thank you for reading,
Katarina

shesheshe

shesheshe

Dym (pl. Smoke)I often feel like I’m releasing from myself smoke like I have to process in myself everything that surrounds me into that smoke.

Dym (pl. Smoke)

I often feel like I’m releasing from myself smoke like I have to process in myself everything that surrounds me into that smoke.

power of socks

power of socks

"Korra: You are not alone"

"Korra: You are not alone"

Without hope

last of “Cutting” series

"Pieces" from “Cutting” series

"Pieces" from “Cutting” series

"Empty"
You gave too much

mechanical pencil, ZIG watercolour marker

"Empty"

You gave too much

mechanical pencil, ZIG watercolour marker

Hugging
mechanical pencil on A3 W&N sketchbook

Hugging

mechanical pencil on A3 W&N sketchbook

I do my art on drugs








sketch from little A6 sketchbook

sketch from little A6 sketchbook

"This is normal"

"This is normal"

"Closed"

pencil and W&N 27,7cmx35,5cm sketchbook

"Closed"

pencil and W&N 27,7cmx35,5cm sketchbook

Heart and Lungs

design for graphics classes

This summer I start to be interested in massage techniques. Thus I studying human organs, muscles, bones, later cells, diseases etc. Everything what I can find in internet ofc. I’m not educated in that like someone after medicine school, but I try to get into medical aspects fully to can see what is under the skin in bodies which we live on this world.


Will be maken probably in wet varnish technique which will give the opportunity to preserve the pencil lines.
I’m doing a diploma from workshop graphic in next year